Last night i made Fondant.

i made two batches, the first one i burnt and the second came out pretty good. the true test of it will be when i go to use it. I Really miss rene, God has him where he has him for a reason, so it's unfair for me really to miss him to much. im letting go a little bit for the time being.

I really miss david to. i miss hanging out with him, he's always been like a brother to me, i've never had to worrie about anything with him, we can joke and know it's only a joke, and it's always just been a nice good time.

Monday,

i road my bike to Andria B's new house and played with the kids while they loaded stuff at the old house and helped unload when they got back to the new house, it was a nice ride there, but a better ride back home. God is good, and i think by far he is Blessing me and Blessing other people around me.

Friday,

I went to Andria I's house and babysat theyre kids so she could go help her aunt, it's always a blessing being around her family, they are so loving and God fearing. she made lunch before she left and when they came home they told me I Had to stay for dinner! (unless i had somewhere else i needed to be) so i did, and it was wonderful.

Friday Night,

after dinner I i left for home or to hang out with my sister, I was staring at so much traffic i decided I wouldn't be going home for a while. I couldn't reach my sister on the phone, but i did reach Co and she invited me to the pumpkin carving party that she was at. it turned into a Great night.

From there I got invited to Andria B's monday and K.S's Party Saturday.

B&M had a party last night (tuesday) but I decided not to go, I think I made the right choice.

I am So Blessed.

the day had adventure in it.

so i started out in the morning, with songs on my lips, God in my heart, and a day ahead of me. i went to babysit and was nerves (nerves? why?). the day went well, and it was nice to be loved on by this family. they are so sweet to me, and i just want to be the biggest help to them. they kept me for dinner (amazing) and then i moved on. upon seeing traffic i decided to make some calls, and so it was that i ended up at one of the pastors houses for a party. as awkward as it could be, i felt loved, and God was there and is with me always and everywhere. i found some people there i don't usually get to see and have rad conversations with anymore, and it was amazing to just sit the two of us ( and her family) and just talk. it's funny how such a little thing is such a huge blessing. thank you God for today and all the things you do. may i be good tomorrow to.
(faithfulness?)
P.s. there is Much talk of Rene, and missing of him too.

It's time for hot coco again..

Do you ever feel the wind blow?
Do you ever feel like something big is coming? what is it? where will it take you? and is it something you need to push or will it just flow your way and carry you up in it?

the weathers changed yet again, it went from being unbearably hot to so cold and chilly with a wind that can almost freeze.
i feel the urge to create, the winds of change, and Gods hands pulling me in. i need to submit, to take up some wings and catch a ride on this Amazing, Cold, Wind.

Treasures in Heaven
21For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
27Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

Temptations & Distractions.. Life is Good.

There's so many temptations and distractions surrounding me, i don't know what way is up or down. it feels like a tornado, or dust devil, just spinning with so much confusion and things flying around my head. so i need to take my self out of the situation, ground my self, and find the place where i can be in contact with Godly women, so will instruct me and teach me to look to the cross.
Questions:
Relationship?
Direction?
Job's?
Location(s)?
Answers:
Ground Your Self In God!
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33

to know that God is powerful is amazing, to know that he loves us, me so intimately, so personally, to the inmost parts. he shows you love in ways that touch your heart, but another seeing that same act might feel nothing. he knows us, he knows YOU!

i want to spend so much more time with God. personal time. time alone, just me and him. yet I get so distracted, being at home feels like there's a million other things i should or could do that would be SO PRODUCTIVE, but the truth is, im missing out. I need to take time, breath, relax, and talk/pray/be silent with God.
I Really want to set time apart for him and me, I think leaving my surroundings helps that. y mind clears when i see nature and the beauty of it all, it feels like just me and God and were so in love... im so in love with him..