New Friends Today..

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Yesterday I went outside
With my momma's mason jar
Caught a lovely butterfly
When I woke up today
Looked in on my fairy pet
She had withered all away
No more sighing in her breast
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away
The ghost slips away
Smell you on my hand for days
I can't wash away your scent
I'm a dog then you're a bitch
I guess you're as real as me
Maybe I can live with that
Maybe I need fantasy
Life of chasing butterfly
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away
The ghost slips away
I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
But I ain't never coming back
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

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trying for artsy

so a run through of today..

Highlights.
Had a great time with mom, walked around an old town, went to a yarn store in San Dimas, went to in n out for dinner, looked for donut man but couldn't find it. came home. Had a nice walk with the boys (Cody, Jason, and Ralston). checked e mail. went over to Amalia's and played games, Justin (Baby dow) made us laugh so hard.
came home. now I’m going to bed.

I Love My Family.
God. Thank You.
GoodNight.

In-Love-Broken-Hearted today.
But it was a Good day.

I think I will try it again this year...

So, walking tonight, Me and Ralston went by this little house covered in Christmas lights. It reminded me of last year, when Me, Linkin, Ralston And Rene went on a walk to see the Christmas lights in Rancho. It was amazing. I Have So Many Good Memories.

I Am Orual At My Worst and Psyche At My Best.

quotas from Steve

"First is this stupid insinuation that to be critical of the USofA you should simply move off to another country because you're obviously not grateful for the freedoms this government gives us, as is our liberties were derived from the State.

On top of that, it's a ridiculous lie to say that we have special liberties in America we wouldn't have in other countries. Sure there are a few countries where Christians are actually persecuted (not called names), but every Western country has the same liberties Americans have. We don't hold liberty hostage in this Union.

But we should also realize that the US church is dead. Missionaries from all over the world actually come here! Christians come here and sit in our church buildings and weep over our excesses. We feast while the world starves. The Church in other parts of the world is praying persecution will come to the Church in America.

And the problem is because we don't think there's a world outside our borders. This is something I noticed when I was overseas: the news channels actually showed cities in other parts of the world. This was especially evident in weather reports. US weather reports has a map of the USA floating in space without anything outside the borders.

But what's worse is the Church in the US thinks Jesus is American, and theology is American, and the Church is American. This is not true. The majority of the Church is not in America. Yet where are the Indian theologians? The African theologians? The women theologians? Why does the American Church marginalize the congregations from the rest of the world?

And who really cares about these bogus "liberties" we get from the State. If you want to be free, you can only find this in Christ. "Free indeed!" The Churches in persecuted parts of the world may be oppressed, but I'll tell you one thing, they are FREE!"

I went outside right now, to see the stars...
mor's been talking about the stars lately and how they are amazing, and how we are God's daughters, his children, and how loved we are. as i looked up tonight i thought of what she said " it's like being kissed by god". i looked up tonight, and felt like i was looking into my loves eye's amazing, sincere, sweet. just love. tonight is a good night.

letters from the heart.

dear sir! : )
how are you doing? i hope you are doing well. how are your hands and feet? i worry that they get cold, but i pray they do not. i pray also that you and your team are safe. i found a book about a couple hiking the PCT, it was a random read at barns and noble seeing as i found it in the dog section. it was interesting reading the story of two people who don't have a faith,a hope and a God, going on a long trying hike. it was depressing how they talked with such a lack of hope. about the wonders, and beauties that God has made. i pray that God keeps your eye's fresh and opened to his beauty, and wonder. and that you continually seek him for your hope and peace. wow i bet you are having an amazing day.
be blessed, amazingly, wonderfully, overflowingly! :)

Expectations

God is going to move.
He is going to do something big.
I need to make time for Him/God.
This is going to be a good time with girls.

It's time for healing time to move on

It's time to fix what's been broken too long

Time make right what has been wrong

It's time to find my way to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me

All I can do is surrender

Whatever you're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone

Time to begin again

Revaluate who I really am

Am I doing everything to follow your will

or just climbing aimlessly over these hills..

So show me what it is you want from me.

I give everything I surrender...To...

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out

That I've wanted to say for so many years

Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

It's time to face up

Clean this old house

Time to breathe in and let everything out