Contrasting Sundays

Last sunday,
Started out bad, listening to gossip and hear say just broke my heart all over again and ruined my day, it was a great day with good plans, I hung out with great people and went hiking even! what could be better?! but my heart was so distracted.
so from this I made a choice: I do not want to hear anymore hearsay or gossip, I'm trying to ignore it and make it known to my friends that unless it is first person information, or of a relevant nature. I DON'T WANT OR NEED TO HEAR IT!
So far so good! making it known, and focusing on the truths.

This sunday,
Started good, we were having a yard sale over the weekend and sunday morning bright and early I made my first sale, which ultimately shut down business. out of nowhere I got this desire to go to church up here.. usually I just go because I slightly enjoy it and after it's done i get to see friends, this time I was actually really looking forward to it. I really enjoyed what I heard, I left there encouraged and recharged. I got invited to lunch with everyone, it's a weekly event, but this week none of my safety net friend where going to be there.. you ow the friends that as long as they are there you feel like you fit in and everything's alright?...so even thought I count everyone who was going to be there as a good friend, it still took a handful of courage to show up. I was really glad I did, I really love these people. and they love me.
I had brought my dog with me and was showing him off to a friend... me and her ended up talking for a couple hours it seemed. we talked about life love and liberty...or something like that. I am blessed with great people in my life, good friends to share conversations and life with.

On my way home I seen a man holding a sign that read "God bless us all" I couldn't help but think "I Am Blessed".
I have a desire to get out of my comfort zone.... so a little ways down the street is the spot that people stand on the street corner and beg for money or food... as I pulled up there was no one there...I was wishing, hoping and praying that someone would be standing there and I could get out of my comfort zone and share my candy that I happened to have with, with them. as the courage grew and the stop light stayed red someone showed up with a sign that read something like "homeless and hungry" sweet!
It's not about a good deed, or "being a good person" it's about getting away from fear and getting out of my comfort zone...it's about the little things that I know are so much more.
..Nothing Is Random.

Putting on my own shoes... And walking in her example.....

So, I've been about blogging again lately, and have really had singleness on my heart. being single and being happy with it, not wanting it any other way. Boys, cooties, and all the amotions and drama that comes with that (and being a girl) is soo distracting. I just read a friends blog, and it's all about finding that one true love... and that is so not for me! I am excited to be happy where I am at. I am Madley in Love with life and my God. but it is definitely something I struggle with, it is not good for man to be alone... but if you can stay single.. do it. oh man! thats a hard one. but when i focus on what God wants and has for my life over my wants... it's pure joy, something so much better then the drama that comes with trying to get what I want.... so today.. this week... and hopefully this year that is what i will be holding to. seeking out what is good for me rather then what is fun and what i want. not always easy, but always the bigger payoff in the end.