Thoughts on trying a new church...
I wish i had the courage and fearlessness/faith I had when I was in Indiana..
I will probably go in a couple weeks...
since this weekend I will be in Vegas.

I want to do something else fearless.. but im having a hard time of actually doing it. I want to take a full day and just go for a bike ride, for miles, or go for a hike. These things are hard for me to do here by myself.. and im not completely sure why. when i was in IN i did that kind of thing all the time. i felt like no one was counting on me so it didn't matter what happened. here i feel i have more responsibility, to be safe, to be back at a decent hour, and maybe even to invite people to my adventure.. when will i grow up?
Move On.

taking a walk....

Today was a good day, but hard. being at that lake reminded me so much of the last time i was there, and the thought of not having days like that with him again really hurts. ( i wonder if not knowing is better then knowing some times.. but im just not sure). the day was good, family, food, sun and just some nice time. i took a walk, tried to get my head cleared and get back to nature a little bit, it was lovely out, but it was packed with people there and noisy boats, so i found a rock by the lake and journaled.. the first time i had journaled in about a month. it was nice to just sit there and write my thoughts. it was pretty mind clearing, even with everyone about.

You Have Blessed Me.. Oh Little Me.

Today was interesting... in a really good way. I love my women's bible study, everyone is so different, but everyone is so vulnerable and willing to open them selves up and share with everybody. we are one body in many parts, sharing one heart. today was amazing, just how God uses us. and how he connects us with each other when we are willing... or maybe even when we are not. he seems to always give us opportunities...

so my day..
After bible study Stephenie v invited me to go with her to get some McDonald's for her kids, and then to go back to her house and have lunch with her and her family. she said she wanted to ask me questions.. and that she did. i was interrogated for hours and it was amazing, she is such a wonderful "lady". she asked me a bunch of question and we just talked about life and interest and anything at all.
...It's crazy God... Who am I that she would care and want to know so much about me?

there is also a connection with Ashley T that i think can be an amazing friendship/working from God. i don't know what or how, or if it will turn out. but i think we have a few interests that you will definitely, soon use in our lives. ....Thank You God For Today.

I Really Miss Him Today...

This is a neat idea....

knitting in the park.

I'll have to talk to Mrs. McCool about this!

.Bitter Sweet.

i finished The Screwtape Letters, By C.S. Lewis last night. and am now on the second chapter of "Till We Have Faces". I am becoming a fan of C.S. Lewis.

I am working on a painting of a girl, who is sad, torn down, yet has so much beauty and is trusting in God. it's based off of Lamentations and a verse or two in Song of Solomon. and just some thoughts on my life right now and Gods beauty..

Trying to be a better person

i cleaned out our pantry type cupboard today...
there are some small bug type things living in there, they get into everything, and i don't know how to get rid of them. so needless to say there was plenty of things to be thrown away. it looks much nicer in there now and i have a small feeling of accomplishment. i also did laundry. i think i shall find one more thing to clean and and then i will feel much accomplished for today.

Pray for David.

today. he is wondering what his next step is. does he stay in TX or not.