taking a walk....

Today was a good day, but hard. being at that lake reminded me so much of the last time i was there, and the thought of not having days like that with him again really hurts. ( i wonder if not knowing is better then knowing some times.. but im just not sure). the day was good, family, food, sun and just some nice time. i took a walk, tried to get my head cleared and get back to nature a little bit, it was lovely out, but it was packed with people there and noisy boats, so i found a rock by the lake and journaled.. the first time i had journaled in about a month. it was nice to just sit there and write my thoughts. it was pretty mind clearing, even with everyone about.