I Want More

it is a hard road to go on, to watch your friends go down the road that you so badly desire to go on. I want only what God wants for my life.. and yet I am still at a place of trying to figure that out. what it looks like. where i will go.. or even harder.. not go. so what does that look like today? how do I.. wait. ?

maybe even harder still is the fear, worry, lack of trust in the fact that what if through my sinful nature, when, if, He calls me... I do not hear. I don't want to pass by Him.

I've gone through this question time and time again.
some times realizing that I can botch things up.
other times realizing that if I do it for his glory, no matter what I do it will be blessed....
but what is his "Will" (for me) and how can I honer him and that in my life ...Today...

my burning desire... is that he is willing to send me.
do I just pick and go? if this is a "calling" not just a really really bad want... then would he or wouldn't he give me more direction then just the "pick up and go passion"?

john 10:10 that you may have life to the full.